I finally got diagnosed when I was fourteen years old.
I say finally, because it was such a huge relief from all different kinds of ways, but also to feel less alone. To understand more about myself.
People come in and out of your life, sometimes just for a moment.
That is, and can be, very hard for me to fathom sometimes. For me when that happens to be with friendships, it’s mainly my fault.
Mostly, if not always, because I feel like I am not as”normal” or ”fun” as other people. That is why I tend to mask a lot, which in itself is exhausting.
I have a few good friends, which to me is better than a hundred of non-good friends.
“A friend loves at all times,Proverbs 17:17 NIV
and a brother is born for a time of adversity.”
Non-good friends as in non-accepting you being you.
That I can go to without feeling judged. But the one I can always trust to go to, is God.
I know I make mistakes and am far from perfect, but He knows, and He still has a never-ending love for me.
I used to be an Atheist. I used to talk bad about the Bible, Christians and so on. I had alot of mental health issues. I truly believe God was always there. He loves all of his children. He just waited for me to turn to Him.
“For we live by faith, not by sight.”2 Corinthians 5:7 NIV
I have had a hard time being open about my Faith, to be quite frank with you.
It is hard sometimes, as I am sure you know.
But I told myself I do not care anymore, accept me and my faith as you should accept me for having Autism and Inattentive ADHD, or anything else. If not, I will just leave it at that.